One of Those Days by BB

Do you ever have a day when you wake up and just feel overwhelmed? I’m having one. I’m over-tired, I have a million things to do, I’m missing my dad, and I just want to crawl back into bed and start over. Part of why I started this blog, with my sister, is I needed something else. I’m incredibly thankful I have been able to stay home with my kids for the part 8+ years but there are some days that just feel harder.

I thought I tackled most of the laundry in my house yesterday, well I folded it but haven’t put it away. Nope…I have two more full baskets for today. I have a toy room that desperately needs to be organized and stuff needs to be donated because we have WAY TOO MUCH! Two out of three of my kiddos are dumpers…they go in there and just dump everything out. Ugh! It’s so daunting and it is causing me stress.

I’m trying to come up with quality products and posts that our BB and Binks followers will like and sometimes doubt I’m doing okay. I’m just having a day of self-doubt and anxiety.

But now it’s time to turn it around! Time to look at all I have done. Yes People I’m about to toot my own horn because sometimes we need to just make ourselves feel better. I have taken on a new project, BB and Binks, and have jumped in head first! I have learned so much in 6 weeks. I’ve dedicated A LOT of time but I’m really enjoying the hard work. I also feel like my brain is activated in a way that it hasn’t been for a long time.

Even though I have two baskets of laundry waiting to be cleaned, and 3 baskets ready to be put away. My family still has clean socks and underwear and plenty of clothes to survive.

I’m a good mom, they may get frustrated with me sometimes but that’s because I’m involved and they always want to get their own way. I’m here to guide them and sometimes their way just isn’t gonna happen…sorry kiddies! My kids know I love them and I’m here for them. My 8 year old pretends he doesn’t like me, but when it comes to the end of the night guess who is fighting to lay by me?

I try to be a good friend. I wish I had more time to just hang out and go out to dinner but I really try hard to be there to listen or give a hug. My intention is for my friends to know they are valued and appreciated. I hope they know that. Sometimes I forget important things, and let me tell you that really pisses me off. Especially when that friend has been so good to me. I have learned to surround myself with women who lift me up and to whom I can reciprocate. I feel lucky to have so many strong women to call friends.

Being a wife was something I always wanted to be. When I met Bill I hoped he’d be the one. I had dated a lot but got to a point that I wasn’t sure I was going to meet someone who I wanted to be with and who wanted to be with me. We are so opposite in so many ways, but when it comes to our values, we want the same things. We’ve gone through a lot but have come out stronger. I’m thankful every single day for the life we’ve created together. Even if it involves WAY TOO MUCH LAUNDRY. You hear me, I hate laundry!

I lost my dad almost 3 years ago pretty suddenly. I’ve been missing him a lot lately. My youngest was only 3 months old when he died. He has been talking a lot about Grandpa lately. It seems so magically spiritual to me because there is no way he knows him. Of course we talk about Grandpa and see pictures, but it feels like more. I can’t help but think Little Man and my dad have a bond that surpasses this life. I’m so thankful for that!

Okay I’m starting to feel better. I’m going to put on my big girl pants and go tackled some jobs. For those of you who know me personally know I’m long winded and talk a lot haha. I can only hope your day started better than mine. Let’s go conquer those tasks!